I watched the stars that littered the night sky.
I always luved that moment. My fishin rod casted out into the open sea, I would often lie down to gaze the moonlit sky, listenin to the peace n tranquil. It is here, I am often at peace wif myself and the world around me. I so admired the twilight beauty. Here, away from the artificial lights of the city, lay a different type of beauty. One that I constantly admire and to remind myself... if the world now is this beautiful.. hw'd paradise would be like?
We did not catch any fish yesterday nite, Boboy n me. The wind was strong, the sea too restless. So we juz let our rods be in their respective holder n juz settle back to juz admire the surrounding ambience n enjoy our ciggs n conversations.
So we talked abt relationship. After all, Boboy is already in his 1st year engagement. The majority of my frenz are gettin into relationships... marriage, engagement n stuffs. Its tough bein engaged. For me... i always believe that no mattter how much u luved that person... there muz always be sum time spent apart. Time spent juz bein for myself... doin my own thing and being left alone. I mean... i'd sure suffocate if I were to juz sms 'I'm goin to werk now' 'I'm havin dinner now' ' I juz woke up n goin to have a shower'
You see, both their relationship hav been on the rocks lately. Its funny... when things started out it is always sweet n seems nothing can go wrong. There is always honesty n most importantly... love. But the test of time is the greatest test of all. With time... we always forget the reason why we came to luv that person in the 1st place.
So I juz listened to his grief without handing out any advice at all. It is not my place, and i no longer wished to get involved. Like I said.. i now no longer try to change the world. Juz merely try to live by it. After all, he didnt ask for my advice. That's my policy now. Not to help unless specifically for help. I'm a selfish bastard? Neh, its more of self preservation.
So he drifted off to sleep while I continued my gaze at the stars. Always thinking. Mum's health already started to decline, I thought she was makin admirable recovery. Well, I thought wrong. There is always sumthing that would take my new found happiness. That was what I found out when I accompanied mum for her appointment at NCC yesterday. As always, i take it all in stride.. there will always be time to feel later.
I'm tired.
