"Honest luv makes one's soul a reflection of the partner's moods.

And as a room seems larger when lined wif mirrors, so do the joys becum amplified.

And as the individual items in the room becums less clear and sharp, so does the pain diminish and fade, spread thin by the sharin.

That is the beauty of honest, true love, whether in passion or frenship. A sharing tht multiplies the joys and thins the pain."

-Jan. 01, 2005
In My Place... I'm Walking Away



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The Longest Road
Sunday, July 31, 2005

The longest road begins wif one step. Most of my collegues r tolking abt it nowadays. The tension n stress of lookin for a new job. But sumhow, I don't feel affected by it.
There muz be more to this life than juz merely lookin to make more money. Like i've always said to my frenz, for how long muz we be like this? It seems to me tht we are becumin slaves to our jobs, when its supposed to be let the job be our slave. How long muz I keep makin compromises. My dream... juz for the sake of havin 'a job'?
I believe that ther muz be more to this life than juz werk n werk n more werk to earn a livin. There Must Be an alternative way. I yearned every time to hav spare time to do the things tht i've always wanted to do. Self-upgrading.. doin the lil things in life that many often take it for granted.
Hw long has it been when I really hav the time to meditate all alone in my room after prayers? Lookin deep into my own self, reflecting on my past, learnin frm mistakes and makin resolves for the future? When was the last time since I last recite the Quran, seekin guidance? And when was the last time since I last step into the library and doin research into my own faith? Ultimately, when was the last time since I truly watch the sky grow dark, seeing and hearin the waves crashin against the beach? So much more.. so much more...
Life is like a blur nowadays. Physically and mentally xhausted. Its really takin a toll on me. I believe its abt time I withdraw frm this hectic world and time to rejuvenate. Therz always so much more to this life.
Hav u ever stop wht u doin and take a clear look around u? Try it.. and u might knw wht i mean...

11:57
Shah
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The Light Of The DarK
Friday, July 22, 2005

Finally, a new look, a new beginning. Its been so long since I last updated. Been waiting for sumone to help me out wif the new layout. Never was an IT savvy person. Its almost four mths now since my last entry. So much had happened since then.
If sumone were to ask u.. do u knw wht Shah is like, hw would u answer? Well, u'd probably answer.. shah who? Of course u do not knw me. But most tht do.. well, they'd say sumthing like 'Oh, u mean shah the happy guy? Always the funny irritant?'
If u were to believe dat person.. well, i don't blame u. Tht's how i usually am. Tht's wht the world sees. A very happy, irritating, even at times, chidlish shah. But if I were to tell u, tht I am more than that. That there is more depth to shah, would u believe me?
Or would u think dat I am juz full of myself?
This is my chronicles. My story. The truth and only the truth. My thoughts and my reflections. Of how i perceive the world. I am NOT a perfect person. I am only human. I let the world see wht I want them to see. The times when I really stop and take a look at my life. When I asked myself the reason why and ttryin to find answers to my many questions.
Like Anne Morrow Lindberg once said "Writing Is Thinking. It is More than living. For it is being conscrious of Living.
This is the Chronicles of Shah DarKSidE and his journey of tryin to find his redemption.

20:28
Shah
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