Tired...
I've been sayin that alot lately. I'm always tired n fatigued. But sumhow.. I can only feel all the weariness n fatigue when I am all alone in my room. Its strange really.. when I'm outside wif my luved ones or headin for werk, all the fatigue n weariness vanish. I feel strong and energetic. I rarely sleep at night, sumtimes even in the day. But on the days when I laze at home, I could sleep for more than 12 hours but the fatigue is always there, all the aches & pains. Am I a man, driven by my responsibilities? The reasons n cause of my drivin force... putting all my fatigue aside, only to hav it cum back in full force when I am idle?
I finally gav my bike a thorough wash n polish yesterday, fine tuning it here n there. After all, I had a 'minor' mishap quite sumtime back. My bike is almost OK... i juz need to ensure if indeed my engine oil hav a gradual leakage. As always, after I'm done washin her, she came under my close, scrutinizing eye. Granted she is still shiny n genereally look like brand new (chrome bikes are a real pain in the ass to keep it that way) there are still sum minor rustin here n there at those hard to reach places. She also hav a good deal of scars juz like her owner. The most prominet at the tip of the xhaust pipe n the front fork.
As always.. I am very fond of her. I will always remember the day I walked into that bike shop more than three years ago. I could almost feel drawn to her... as though she was lookin at me wif the words 'I'm made for u' scrawled all over her. I hav my 2A for two years now, yet I still could not let her go for a bigger n better bike. She had served me faithfully for all these years.
Hahha.. there's sumthing abt her that's unique. That sets her apart from other bike of the same model wif her. All my frenz knw her trademark sound. As Maya often point out.. they can know its ME cumin from afar...haha!
Ramadhan is comin. Time really flies. What's new huh? As always, there same age old theme. What to make for kuih raya.. wht kurong to wear. I dun normally bother to buy new kurongs. My old ones still as good as new n i dun see the point of squandering money buyin new ones. Well, ok, maybe this year i'd juz get a pair juz for u ;)
Perhaps, this raya might be a lil diff. After all, my family is back together again aint it? Well.. yeah. But I still hav sum things that I hav to settle for my mum regarding the treatments. N her condition is like a roller coaster ride... perfectly fine one moment and that take a steep downward plunge n than up again. She still neds to go for her treatments n check up every once in awhile.
You know... I always let my fren know that I dun look forward to fasting n terawih. But truth be told.. I longed for ramadhan. It is one of my big ticket to my redemption. I always go terawih alone. It is ther, I feel all the layers of darkness bein shed. A month of goodness. Also a month of extreme test my patience! LoL!
Pandora's Box. It is true that when that box was opened, all the darkness fled from it, but also, from that darkness... also came hope.
